Tuesday, November 18, 2008

6 Days

We have only 6 days till Grandma and Grandpa come for Thanksgiving. YEAH I love you guys so much and miss you. There is nothing like seeing your grandparents I love hanging out with them. I know when they come we are in for LOTS of cards and food, we Thomas' know how to merge the 2 together well. Yeah i stole the pic from Mindy I don't have a pic of Grandma and Grandpa together. Love you guys and can't wait for you to get here.

Friday, November 14, 2008

So I was thinking....

I know that can be a bad thing but, when work is slow and there isn't much to do i tend to think about things. There are some things that happened about 2yrs ago that really hurt me and my family. I seem to still think about this and don't know why it is like this ghost that haunts me just when i think I have beat it, it returns.

I wander why it happened and why God wont let me just forget it? You see I thought I had meet the right guy the one i would have babies with and grow old together. Only I had found the one that would hurt me more and deeper then anyone had ever hurt me before.

So why is it so hard to just let this go and forget about it? I want to forget it ever happened it seems the more I try to do that the more he is in my mind. You know that I am afraid to go to a truck stop by myself now because of him. I know that sounds crazy but, if you know me then you understand why that is. I guess this just proves to me that the devil is just a evil if not more then we think cause only he would push me toward a man that acts like a Godly man but, is far from it.

Then I think about this saying I was told one year at Duncan's camp by a very smart christian girl. She said 'Satan sends his best before God sends his very best'. So now I wait for God to send his very best when and if it happens I will be here till God calls us home.

Which leads me to think about all the things that I should stop doing or change to bring that very best. I am working on some of those things it is a long hard road but, I am trying. I was talking to Jason about some of these things that I am going through and he is helping me a lot he has that encouraging voice I hear when I need that little boost in confidence. He is one of very few people that REALLY knows me. The good, the bad, and the ugly in my life I have never had to or wanted to hind things from him. I think that is why we have such a good relationship. Jason made a change in his life about 2 years ago he totally changed everything about him the Jason I knew is no more but, I like the new Jason even more then the old. Because now i can call say this is the struggle I am facing and he says been there this is what you should do. It is so easy to explain how I feel too cause he has been there and did that. Just knowing that he came out of it helps me to know if he can then so can I.

I know I posted a song yesterday but, this is one that hits home with me sometimes I feel like Casting Crowns wrote this song for me. Read the words the look it up on God Tube listen and watch the video. I love this song it is me and says just how I have felt so many times.
She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her
If Judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her
Never even met her
(Never Even Met her)

What a good day!!!

My sister texted me last night and told me 'Madelyn asked Jesus into her heart tonight'. That is so exciting we have one more going to Heaven with us now.

My friend Jason called me and told me Becca's (a friend of ours) dad is in the hospital and to pray for him. They are not sure what is wrong with him but, he is bleeding in the brain they think he had a mild stroke. I talked to Becca today he is doing a little better he is still bleeding in the brain and it is bruised. They think the bruise happened when he fell caused by the stroke. Please pray for him he is better but not out of the woods he doesn't remember somethings and hopefully the bleeding will stop. I know the family would really appreciate your prayers in this manner.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Revelation WHAT A SONG!!!1

So I had a not very good weekend things were not looking good for me money wise it was bad. God worked things out and now there just mite be a light at the end of the tunnel. In the process of going through this I heard a song by Third Day that really touched me I couldn't get it out of my head all weekend. I only heard it once on Friday but it stayed in my head I couldn't find it anywhere online either. Then today I found it on Godtube I will post the lyrics and try to post what is on Godtube. I love this song it is so true and has help me so much this weekend I hope it speaks to you also.

Third Day Revelation Lyrics:

My life has led me down the road that's so uncertain

Now I am left alone and I am broken

Trying to find my way Trying to find the faith that's gone

This time I know that you are holding all the answers

I'm tired of losing hope and taking chances

On roads that never seem To be the ones that bring me home

Give me a revelation

Show me what to do

'Cause I've been trying to find my way

I haven't got a clue

Tell me should I stay here Or do I need to move

Give me a revelation

I've got nothing without you

I've got nothing without you

My life has led me down this path that's ever winding

Through every twist and turn, I'm always finding

That I am lost again

Tell me when this road will ever end

I don't know where I can turn

Tell me, when will I learn

Won't you show me where I need to go

Let me follow your lead

I know that it's the only way that I can get back home

Give me a revelation,

Show me what to do

Cause I’ve been trying to find my way,

I haven’t got a clue

Tell me should I stay here,

Or do I need to move

Give me a revelation I’ve got nothing without You

I’ve got nothing without You

Oh, give me a revelation…

I’ve got nothing without You

I’ve got nothing without You
If you click on the following link it will take you to God Tube this is not the best sound quality but you can at least hear the song.
You don't know how much God will take care of you after you have dug yourself into a hole until he helps you out of the hole. Friday I was ready to call it quites on everything I was at rock bottom I have been low before but, never this low. With a lot of talking and crying with my dad and this song I started to feel better. Then God started opening windows all over things just started falling into place. In the end I wont be where I am now but, I will be better off. I plan to work on a lot of things over the next few months there are a lot of giants that I need to fight. With God's help all is possible so i am not worried he has a plan for me I need to step a side so that the plan can happen. I need to stop doing a lot of the things that I do so that he can work in my life I know this but, it is hard. Please pray that I will have the strength to turn everything over to him and turn from the things I shouldn't do. Thank you all so much I will talk to you later.

TWILIGHT the movie comes out Nov 21 yeah!!!!!!

OH my let me just say if you have not read Twilight go get you a copy today and read it before the movie comes out next Friday. I am so excited about this I can hardly contain myself. I have never read a book so fast in my life I love this story. I also have a thing for vampire series another good one is Charlaine Harris' southern vampire series if you have HBO they made a show from this series(read the books first show is good book is better). Anyway I am just really excited and wanted all to know go see Twilight.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Yeah I know it has been awhile but, really I don't think anyone reads this so I am safe. So I moved into a new apartment the first of October. A one bedroom alittle smaller but really I didn't need that big place with just me and this one is cheaper ;). We had the buddy walk for Jonas on Oct. 4 that was a lot of fun good times had by all. My friend Liz even came out to help support us. Last year we didn't go but, I think we will make sure that we do every year from now on. Isn't he just the cutest little boy ever;)

Liz and I they were serving Starbucks coffee not that great that was some really strong coffee.

They had pictures along the walk of different children that was cool.

Here is all of us by Jonas's Picture oh yeah we couldn't forget the dog Charolette.
So that is what has been going on unpacking settling into the new place. I got my hair cut and colored thursday that is different but a good different. you will see I will try and get some pics up soon.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

I ran away last weekend to BIKE WEEK at Sturgis!!!!

So my friend Liz said to me last week I want to take the kids to see their Grandma next weekend and Jeremy is working would you like to go? We will just go not tell anyone that we are going. I said sure cause I have never been to Rapid or anywhere west of Sioux Falls. It was so much fun Friday night we went to Sturgis walked down Main street saw a lot of bikes and other things. Went to The Full Throttle to see Three Six Mafia I had a blast.

Saturday we did the tourist thing cause I had never see the sights of the west. Liz and I went to her mama's house to pick up the kids and mama. Then we headed for Crazy Horse. That was awesome you know that it is not federal money all donations and cost of admission. I think that is cool yet it is taking a long time to carve this thing because of that. the welcome center they have there is really cool there are low scale modals of what it will look like when it is finished. I asked Liz do you think it will be done in our life time? She said NO.
Ok Liz told me this rock was coming up on the road we were on and I said I had to have a pic. I didn't believe her at first then I saw it. I'm not gonna say what I see I will let you decided what you see.
After Crazy Horse we went to Custer, Liz showed me all the places she had lived. Then we were off the Mt Rushmore Yeah I was so excited this is one place I had always wanted to go since I was little. I tell you it is the coolest thing to see standing there under George's nose is wild and yet beautiful at the same time.
Liz's kids in front of Mt Rushmore Sandy, Skyler, and Jordy.
As you walk up to the faces they have these pillars on each side there is a state it says what year the state was added and what number the state is. There is also the state flag hanging above that. I am standing next to the Indiana one cause that is home to me. When we were done at Mt Rushmore we headed up the road to Keystone were we found this big chair we all had get our picture taken in the chair.

This a pic of Skyline drive it is so pretty sorry it is blurry.

Sunday we headed up to Deadwood wow let me tell you it doesn't matter if you like to gamble or not just to see these old buildings is so worth it. A lot of them are the original building from the 1800's which I find really cool. So that is about it for me now I will try and hit you back with more as it comes.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

My clock is ticking tick, tick, tick.....

OK so I bet you are wondering what the heck I mean. Lately I have been feeling my clock ticking the thought of having a baby is something I have been thinking about more and more. Which really sucks when you have no one to share that with(I mean a man). Part of me loves being single the freedom that comes with it. The other part longs for that companionship and having my OWN family. The stuff I've dreamed of since I was a little kid you the husband, kids, a dog or cat. It hurts and sucks to know that I am almost 28 and have none of this that I always thought I would have. It is amazing when you are a kid you dream of so many things you think that is what your life will be like. That isn't how it happens at all I look back and think what did I do wrong did I take the wrong path to get HERE. Is this punishment for something I did wrong? Or am I NEVER going to have those things I dreamed of for so long. Maybe this is just gonna be my life forever single and no kids. I could lie and say that I would be ok with that but, I wouldn't I want to know what it feels like to have that baby move inside you the first time the morning sickness. I know I am crazy but, when you have been around so many people that have had kids and you listen to them talk about these things all that comes to my mind is 'I can't wait to experience that'. I can't even imagine what it feels like to have all those hormones and feelings going on with your body but, I sure hope I get to someday. When I try to explain this to others they don't and can't understand cause they either had kids young or never had this alone time that I have had. If you haven't experienced this you can't understand it I know that doesn't make sense to some but, if you haven't been down that road you can't give someone else directions. If that makes sense at all it does to me cause I haven't ever been down that family road so I can't give directions for that road. I keep feeling like I am having a bad dream and I will wake up and things will be the way I want them to be. You know husband, 2.5 kids, house, and pets but, it isn't a dream this is my life. Weather I like it or not I need to just face that this is what God has given me and move forward and if he says that I'm not to have any of those things then I will have to deal with it like it or not.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Just some thoughts!!

So there hasn't been to much going on in my life but I will update you on things. Job has been good working more our other night QA took a supervisor position so I am now the only night QA. Which means I now work Sunday thur Thursday 8 to 10 hr shifts. Man it is hard to go back to working everyday I am so ready when Friday gets here for a day off.

Mothers Day was nice Mindy, the kids, mom, and I all went out for lunch together that was fun. It was a very rainy day but we still had fun went and ran around town and of course the MALL. I wasn't sure what to get mom for mother's day and it was her birthday so I told her we would just go shopping and she could pick something out. In true Thomas family we usually end up finding the good deal and we did mom got the outfit she wanted and it didn't cost me an arm and a leg. Thanks mom.

So now I am preparing for my road trip to INDIANA YEAH I am so excited it has been almost a year since I saw all my friends (who are family I have 3 kids there, Adam, Tirzah, and Noah) . There has been a new baby born that I haven't got to spoil yet and I am so excited about that little Noah is ready to meet his aunt Toni.

My best friend is getting married so excited for her she is marrying a great guy I couldn't have picked a better guy for her. She has had so many losers and it makes me happy that she has finally found her Prince so to speak. We all no men aren't prefect but, this man is just the best I knew it when I went over there and he had a room just for Tirzah. What guy does that I don't know any his is so good with Tirzah too and he puts up with Melissa's crap. Believe me if he can handle her he is a good man. Oh now she isn't that bad she is like me only a little wilder. She is my sister and always will be God didn't make us sisters cause I think he knew our parents could never handle that. So I have 13 sleeps til I will be in INDIANA. We are so excited I am heading up the Bachelorette party from 900 miles away that is fun let me tell you. I have some help which is good I have so much planned it is going to be a blast. Melissa's mom and I are also throwing her a Bridal shower the same day so that will be fun and very conservative.

OK enough about that, I was feeling a little conflict going on inside of me a couple weeks ago so I called up my good friend Jason who has been through some trails and i knew could help. He suggested I read this book about David and Goliath it is called Defeating the Giants. I fell in love with this book as I was reading the book I was also going back to the Bible to really understand what was going on. There is so much more to the story that I never knew you know when they tell us Bible stories they say all the good parts but, not about all the trails that they went through. Which helps you to understand that you aren't the only one going through a valley or trying to climb that mountain. I also came across this really good band (thanks to Jason) called Skillet they are a christian band that is also played on the pop radio. I always love it when a christian band crosses both radios because that is one way we can get the message of Christ out to those who don't know him. So think about that the next time you hear "I can only imagine on the radio and you aren't on the christian radio station.

I know that I have done a lot of jumping around in thought but this is all stuff that goes on with me you think I like carrying all this stuff in my head. So I guess I will leave it at that for now I will try to update you on all the crazyness in my head again real soon.

Monday, March 3, 2008

Had a Blast Saturday night!!

Chelle, Liz, and I decided to go out to the bar Saturday night and have a few drinks. I will walk you threw the night Chelle took pictures and I made a lot of funny pictures. In the first one I was posing pretty.

Don't ask what was happening here it appears as though Liz is grabbing me but, she is not.

I was telling her no and she was saying yes in the end she won!

Liz was testing to see if I could still feel my nose. I could all night not a problem.

I kept loosen my straw in my glass ok I was a little out of it..

They were being mean to me:( Ok not so mean as embarrassing me about the cute bartender.

So that pretty much sums up the night. I hope all are happy I updated my blog.

Monday, February 4, 2008

The cutest babies

Racheal came to visit Mindy this weekend (her best friend). She has a 4 month old Mable she is so cute and the same size as Jonas who is 8months. Mable weights 15lbs and Jonas weights 14lbs he looks so little next to her. They has lots of fun playing with each other pulling hair, ears, and a little bit of finger sucking. It was just so cute the 2 most adorable babies in the world playing together.

Sam's Birthday

So Sam had a good Birthday party got a lot of good gifts and had lots of fun too.

Thursday, January 31, 2008


I know you are wondering what is with all the pictures of Sam well It is Sam's Birthday today (at least for the next hour). I am a little slow I know any way I thought I would pick out a few good pictures of him and post them for his birthday. Mindy is having a party on saturday I will have more pictures then. Enjoy y'all.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Some newer pictures

I know some of you would love to see new pictures of Jonas and the kids so here you go.
Titus and Kegean at christmas my great cousin

Jonas at Christmas he is getting so big I can't believe how fast he has grown

You Have to love his smile he is just so cute. How could you not love this little boy?

My new friends

So I have meet these two crazy girls we have so much fun together. We get a little crazy sometimes I might show you some of those pictures sometime.

Here is Liz, Me, and Chelle on New Years Eve

Chelle and her dollar bird on New Years she silly
Liz and her pretty hat she has a nice hat.

Liz and Me New Years

Me and Chelle
We all had so much fun that night.

Here is a wonderful picture of the first snow we had which was after thanksgiving. Some of this snow is still here(yeah) we also have gotten more the last couple days.

Falls Park a couple weeks ago sorry it is a little blury. It really is beautiful there at night they put lights on the falls and they change colors it is beautiful.
This one is much better see how pretty it is I love the falls.

The wonderful view from on top of the tower they have there it is so pretty.
Ok I hope you all enjoy the pictures of the falls I will take some that aren't blury.