Tuesday, November 18, 2008

6 Days


We have only 6 days till Grandma and Grandpa come for Thanksgiving. YEAH I love you guys so much and miss you. There is nothing like seeing your grandparents I love hanging out with them. I know when they come we are in for LOTS of cards and food, we Thomas' know how to merge the 2 together well. Yeah i stole the pic from Mindy I don't have a pic of Grandma and Grandpa together. Love you guys and can't wait for you to get here.

Friday, November 14, 2008

So I was thinking....

I know that can be a bad thing but, when work is slow and there isn't much to do i tend to think about things. There are some things that happened about 2yrs ago that really hurt me and my family. I seem to still think about this and don't know why it is like this ghost that haunts me just when i think I have beat it, it returns.

I wander why it happened and why God wont let me just forget it? You see I thought I had meet the right guy the one i would have babies with and grow old together. Only I had found the one that would hurt me more and deeper then anyone had ever hurt me before.

So why is it so hard to just let this go and forget about it? I want to forget it ever happened it seems the more I try to do that the more he is in my mind. You know that I am afraid to go to a truck stop by myself now because of him. I know that sounds crazy but, if you know me then you understand why that is. I guess this just proves to me that the devil is just a evil if not more then we think cause only he would push me toward a man that acts like a Godly man but, is far from it.

Then I think about this saying I was told one year at Duncan's camp by a very smart christian girl. She said 'Satan sends his best before God sends his very best'. So now I wait for God to send his very best when and if it happens I will be here till God calls us home.

Which leads me to think about all the things that I should stop doing or change to bring that very best. I am working on some of those things it is a long hard road but, I am trying. I was talking to Jason about some of these things that I am going through and he is helping me a lot he has that encouraging voice I hear when I need that little boost in confidence. He is one of very few people that REALLY knows me. The good, the bad, and the ugly in my life I have never had to or wanted to hind things from him. I think that is why we have such a good relationship. Jason made a change in his life about 2 years ago he totally changed everything about him the Jason I knew is no more but, I like the new Jason even more then the old. Because now i can call say this is the struggle I am facing and he says been there this is what you should do. It is so easy to explain how I feel too cause he has been there and did that. Just knowing that he came out of it helps me to know if he can then so can I.

I know I posted a song yesterday but, this is one that hits home with me sometimes I feel like Casting Crowns wrote this song for me. Read the words the look it up on God Tube listen and watch the video. I love this song it is me and says just how I have felt so many times.
She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her
If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her
If Judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her
Never even met her
(Never Even Met her)

What a good day!!!

My sister texted me last night and told me 'Madelyn asked Jesus into her heart tonight'. That is so exciting we have one more going to Heaven with us now.



My friend Jason called me and told me Becca's (a friend of ours) dad is in the hospital and to pray for him. They are not sure what is wrong with him but, he is bleeding in the brain they think he had a mild stroke. I talked to Becca today he is doing a little better he is still bleeding in the brain and it is bruised. They think the bruise happened when he fell caused by the stroke. Please pray for him he is better but not out of the woods he doesn't remember somethings and hopefully the bleeding will stop. I know the family would really appreciate your prayers in this manner.


Thursday, November 13, 2008

Revelation WHAT A SONG!!!1

So I had a not very good weekend things were not looking good for me money wise it was bad. God worked things out and now there just mite be a light at the end of the tunnel. In the process of going through this I heard a song by Third Day that really touched me I couldn't get it out of my head all weekend. I only heard it once on Friday but it stayed in my head I couldn't find it anywhere online either. Then today I found it on Godtube I will post the lyrics and try to post what is on Godtube. I love this song it is so true and has help me so much this weekend I hope it speaks to you also.




Third Day Revelation Lyrics:


My life has led me down the road that's so uncertain


Now I am left alone and I am broken


Trying to find my way Trying to find the faith that's gone


This time I know that you are holding all the answers


I'm tired of losing hope and taking chances


On roads that never seem To be the ones that bring me home




Give me a revelation


Show me what to do


'Cause I've been trying to find my way


I haven't got a clue


Tell me should I stay here Or do I need to move


Give me a revelation


I've got nothing without you


I've got nothing without you




My life has led me down this path that's ever winding


Through every twist and turn, I'm always finding


That I am lost again


Tell me when this road will ever end


I don't know where I can turn


Tell me, when will I learn


Won't you show me where I need to go


Let me follow your lead


I know that it's the only way that I can get back home




Give me a revelation,


Show me what to do


Cause I’ve been trying to find my way,


I haven’t got a clue


Tell me should I stay here,


Or do I need to move


Give me a revelation I’ve got nothing without You


I’ve got nothing without You


Oh, give me a revelation…


I’ve got nothing without You


I’ve got nothing without You
If you click on the following link it will take you to God Tube this is not the best sound quality but you can at least hear the song.
You don't know how much God will take care of you after you have dug yourself into a hole until he helps you out of the hole. Friday I was ready to call it quites on everything I was at rock bottom I have been low before but, never this low. With a lot of talking and crying with my dad and this song I started to feel better. Then God started opening windows all over things just started falling into place. In the end I wont be where I am now but, I will be better off. I plan to work on a lot of things over the next few months there are a lot of giants that I need to fight. With God's help all is possible so i am not worried he has a plan for me I need to step a side so that the plan can happen. I need to stop doing a lot of the things that I do so that he can work in my life I know this but, it is hard. Please pray that I will have the strength to turn everything over to him and turn from the things I shouldn't do. Thank you all so much I will talk to you later.

TWILIGHT the movie comes out Nov 21 yeah!!!!!!

OH my let me just say if you have not read Twilight go get you a copy today and read it before the movie comes out next Friday. I am so excited about this I can hardly contain myself. I have never read a book so fast in my life I love this story. I also have a thing for vampire series another good one is Charlaine Harris' southern vampire series if you have HBO they made a show from this series(read the books first show is good book is better). Anyway I am just really excited and wanted all to know go see Twilight.