Friday, June 25, 2010

In Love....

I got inspired by a couple other blogs who posted pics of shoes they love so here are some of my favorites. I love these Black patton Ariat's since the first time I saw them a year ago I so want them..

Then there are these BEAUTIES LOVE the red boots so cute...

These are just cute have to have them...

Then there are the heels.... I wasn't a big heels person till recently. I got a couple pairs and not I am addicted to heels.

These I like the look of them but not crazy about the print..
These I want cause they are RED I so want a pair of red shoes....

These are really cute also like them a lot...

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Does anybody hear her??

I have always loved the song Does Anybody Hear Her by Casting Crowns for many reasons. So much of that song was me. Not so much any more tho..

I love the line ' she is yearning for shelter and affection that she never got at home she is searching for a hero to ride in to ride in and save the day. And in walks her prince charming and he knows just what to say momentary lapse of reason and she gives herself away.'

I have thought about that line many times and I think I finally know why I fell in love with it. So I think part of it is the searching for affection. I am like an affection junky I love that cuddling you know just that touch and holding someone. Showing someone that you care for them.

I think that is why I dated so many loser's cause I was searching for someone just to show me that attention that I needed and wanted. I am dealing with it different now then I did before.

This is what I hate about having a job that doesn't work my brain I have to much time to think. I used to tell myself I didn't want to be a "fake" christian so instead I ran away completely to keep from being a "fake" christian. I have been a more out ward christian in the last few months and he feels great mind, body, and soul. Why did I run from this is what I been thinking all day...

I have made many changes in the last few months and that has help also have surrounded myself with christian people. This summer has been a blessing and a curse I have a wonderful christian woman that is helpful in encouraging me and I encourage her. But it hasn't been all roses we are working with a lady that is unsaved and has many issues. She is very standoffish and doesn't like us listening to christian music and has complained about that. She is trying very hard to stir things up tell lies about me and try to get me in trouble.

It really bothers me tho cause I have gotten so much closer then I have ever been before. I never would have been so out word with my believes before. If someone had a problem with what I was listening to I would change it for them and I am not giving in. I think I am the opposite really I play the music more and don't care what she says. So every day I pray for help to make it through the day and dealing with her.

I know I covered a lot in this post but, I had a lot on my mind and didn't want to do two post.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

If we ask and have faith we will recieve

Ok so all our lives we are taught that if we pray and ask God for something we will recieve. I have become more faithful in praying for what I want and I have faith that God will give me what I ask for.

I can't let others change that I was a little excited about something the other day and someone stomped on my excitement. I know that there are people who have no idea what it is like to want something pray for it and sit and let God bring it to you. So much has changed for me in the last 5 months with God's help I have changed my life. The fact that others noticed this that I don't talk to that much means God and I are on the right track here.

I learned that what I thought was stricked as a child was no where near stricked. I am very thankful for all that my parents did for us but, I know there are many reasons why I did the things that I did for the last 10 years I see them now. Some would probly say that it isn't why but, only God and I know the reasons.

I am so happy that God has put me where I am today I know that is for a reason also. I am also excited for where God is leading my life I enjoy talking to people at church, doing activies with them, and having a christian to talk to.

So I am so excited to see where God lead me in the future.....