Life and Times of Me

Things have been changing...

2011-04-05T12:11:00.005-05:00

Since my last post I went to Aunt Alice's for Thanksgiving while we where there we got to visit with some of dad's family. My Aunt Angie and Uncle Jeff were there visiting their son and all their kids were there. Was nice to see them we haven't gotten to see them the last few times we have been to Grandma's.

Then Christmas came we stayed here in Da Plains for Christmas I went to a friends house had fun with her kids. There was lots of food, games,and fellowship I so enjoy just having a good time with great people.

Anyway then there was New Year's my singles group from church went to a hockey game then all came over to our house for fellowship, food, and games. We had a lot of fun that night something we should do again for sure.

Grandma Martin passed away in early January so we headed to Illinois to say good bye to Grandma. Had a good visit with both sides of family I got to meet mom's brother's whom I had never met.

In February I moved into my own apartment it is a one bedroom. Has a nice size living room and bedroom. I love my little apartment so cute and cozy.

Then out of no where came J he has turned my world upside down. I have prayed for so long that the right guy would come along. I was beginning to think God forgot about me but, he hadn't we just weren't ready to met. Now I see why I had to wait God was preparing me for what was to come. I didn't know that I would need to be prepared but I did. We have both had our hearts pulled out and stomped all over. When you are with someone who has had the same thing happen to them as you it makes things easier to understand where they are coming from.

God was growing me into the strong Christian that he knew I needed to be for J and J has been growing for me. We weren't there until now not to say this last few months have been smooth sailing but, it could have been worse I guess.

We are so happy together he is just what I always wanted in my partner I just hadn't found him. J is so sweet, understanding, loving, caring, respectful, God fearing, funny, serious, hard working, servant, and responsible. There are things about J that I didn't think to ask God for I'm so glad that he gave them to him tho.

I am so happy right now in this season of my life. I hope that people can be happy for me and not dwell on the past. If there is something about J that I'm not seeing then I want it pointed out but, other wise can we not pull him apart please. Your not the one who is in the relationship I am maybe I wouldn't have chose the one you did for you. Needed to rant.

I say that to say this if you can't be happy for me and support me (cause i am an adult and I know the mistakes I have made in the past it happened to ME!!!!!) then don't say anything and you wont have to be in our lives. I say and mean this even IF things don't work out with J remember this for the future.

We have and do pray about our relationship and feel very strong about us and where we stand. there will not be a quick wedding if that is what your thinking relax. Did that once look how that turned out lol.

I think that is all have to get ready for work and J is coming over later might go for a walk later it is so beautiful outside.

Love ya'll

2010-10-11T20:19:00.006-05:00

I have been deciding weather to post this here goes. I wrote this one day last week.

I went for a walk at my new favorite place the airport path. I love watching the F-16's take off and land. They fly really close to your head there and that is just to cool. I am so happy that I live in a country where planes flying over your head isn't a scary thing.

It was a beautiful day so I decided I would go down to the falls and sit. Which was over flowing due to all the rain we have had lately. I am so excited about what God has planned for my life. He has big plans I know that I just wish I knew what they where. I was thinking back wondering if this is why he has had me be content in the things that have happened over the last 2 years. Things I could do that I couldn't have done if I hadn't been laid off. I think about what I was asked the other night. What are your goals for the next 5-10 years? WOW I realized I didn't have any goal. Cause the only goal I ever had didn't happen or hasn't happened. The only goal I had was to get married and have children. I realized now that I have other goals they are just small goals like I want to go to a nascar race, go on a missions trip, and travel more.

I really feel like I am blooming where God planted me. He put me here for a reason and I see some of the things God wants me to do. I am so excited about starting the singles group this is something I have wanted for several years. We have so many things planned for our group that we want to do God is really going to use us.

So we all have those really lonely days were you feel like there is no one there. You want to do something but, no one to go do it with. That is when I think NO I am not alone I have God I am never alone. He will never leave me nor forsake me. When every other man treats me bad or does me wrong God is there.

I have faith that God will give me the desires of my heart. One day I will finally have my husband and family.

You don't even see me....

2010-08-25T13:03:00.003-05:00

My cousin pointed out something to me a while back that I had felt but never said to anyone.

In our family if you are not married and have kids you aren't thought of as an adult. She is so right but, i will take it one step farther they don't even see you.

They come to visit and I love seeing them but, they come for the grand kids not to see me.

Feel like it doesn't matter what I do I wont make you proud till I am married and have a bunch of kids. I know I am not some great person but, it would be nice if you at least heard me when I spoke. Believed in me that I could do great things if I wanted.

I have tried to let people in and know me but, it like you don't want to know me.

The thing I love most about this blog is that since I have no kids or husband I have no pictures of them or updates. So in return no one reads this so it makes it easier for me to say what I want to say without holding back.

So second pity party is over for the day I think.....

Fairy Tales Aren't Real

2010-08-23T22:29:00.004-05:00

So maybe I am having a pity party but, this is how I feel so take it or leave it.

I am so sick of people telling me I am young and have plenty of time. Cause I'm not the older I get the more I get annoyed by other people's kids and think how I don't want kids now. I think IF I had a kid now I would be 60 when the kid is 20 yeah I don't want that.

When we are young we are told all these fair tales how the princess gets the prince but, that isn't real life so why do we teach this to the kids??? It isn't fair.. Just like playing with Barbie not every woman is thin so why do we let our kids play with them???

I hate feeling envious of a younger girl that is married, engaged, or pregnant. I hate wishing that was me and knowing that it isn't. Maybe I had my chance and that is all I will have again..

I hate that I wanted to start over in a new place yet since I got there I haven't felt like it is any better then where I was.

I hate that I am willing to come to terms that I will never have a child call me mom or a man call me his wife. Even though it breaks my heart to think about it.

I am tried of believing in so fairy tale story or all the exceptions to the rule.

I hate hearing if so and so found someone there is still hope for you don't give up.. WOW thanks that made me feel so much beter.

I hate when people think they understand what you are going through yet they have always been with the one they are married to. You have no idea what it is like so stop pretending like you do.

I hate that what I have to do is suck it up and get over it cause there is nothing else I can do.

When do I get the desire's of MY heart??? I have asked when do I recieve them??? I guess I don't so I am done..

That is my rant take it or leave it but, this is my blog where I can say what I want this is my rant page..

Changes

2010-07-05T21:08:00.005-05:00

I never know how to start my blogs out... So here we go.

Today I went to the lake with this AWESOME couple from church and his brother much fun was had by all. I got to thinking when I got home how much I LOVE hanging with them. I learn something new every time they are so honest and true. You know like you don't feel like they are fake like I have said before I have seen so many fake christians. I always said that I never wanted to be one but, you know what I was really I was a fake person completely. I was one way around my parents, church, and family then went to work, or hang out with my non- christian friends and be completely different.

Now that I have become more faithful in my prayer life and just faithful to God and all he is doing I feel like I am finding ME.. I think I could have told you about me before but, now I am discovering this whole new person that I want to be. I almost feel like a baby christian I craving being around other christians.

There is this super sweet couple in the church they are so fun, she is loud and boisterous he is tall and funny. They are just cute together then you throw in his brother who is just hilarious and so honest about everything. They really have made me open my eyes to a new way of thinking and I am loving it. I was already shouting for God the last 5 months but, the last 3 weeks it has been even more. It amazes me how a conversation with someone can open your eyes so much more.

I look back at where I was going now I was leading my life even 9 months ago and think WOW why was I doing that? How was I never here in the spot that I am now? Why did I never feel like I wanted to shout for Jesus before? Now I want to stand on the roof and tell everyone I see... I am not complaining at all I am so happy with where I am right now and I can't wait to see where it is going to go.

In Love....

2010-06-25T20:52:00.010-05:00

I got inspired by a couple other blogs who posted pics of shoes they love so here are some of my favorites. I love these Black patton Ariat's since the first time I saw them a year ago I so want them..

Then there are these BEAUTIES LOVE the red boots so cute...

These are just cute have to have them...

Then there are the heels.... I wasn't a big heels person till recently. I got a couple pairs and not I am addicted to heels.

These I like the look of them but not crazy about the print..

These I want cause they are RED I so want a pair of red shoes....

These are really cute also like them a lot...

Does anybody hear her??

2010-06-24T18:41:00.005-05:00

I have always loved the song Does Anybody Hear Her by Casting Crowns for many reasons. So much of that song was me. Not so much any more tho..

I love the line ' she is yearning for shelter and affection that she never got at home she is searching for a hero to ride in to ride in and save the day. And in walks her prince charming and he knows just what to say momentary lapse of reason and she gives herself away.'

I have thought about that line many times and I think I finally know why I fell in love with it. So I think part of it is the searching for affection. I am like an affection junky I love that cuddling you know just that touch and holding someone. Showing someone that you care for them.

I think that is why I dated so many loser's cause I was searching for someone just to show me that attention that I needed and wanted. I am dealing with it different now then I did before.

This is what I hate about having a job that doesn't work my brain I have to much time to think. I used to tell myself I didn't want to be a "fake" christian so instead I ran away completely to keep from being a "fake" christian. I have been a more out ward christian in the last few months and he feels great mind, body, and soul. Why did I run from this is what I been thinking all day...

I have made many changes in the last few months and that has help also have surrounded myself with christian people. This summer has been a blessing and a curse I have a wonderful christian woman that is helpful in encouraging me and I encourage her. But it hasn't been all roses we are working with a lady that is unsaved and has many issues. She is very standoffish and doesn't like us listening to christian music and has complained about that. She is trying very hard to stir things up tell lies about me and try to get me in trouble.

It really bothers me tho cause I have gotten so much closer then I have ever been before. I never would have been so out word with my believes before. If someone had a problem with what I was listening to I would change it for them and I am not giving in. I think I am the opposite really I play the music more and don't care what she says. So every day I pray for help to make it through the day and dealing with her.

I know I covered a lot in this post but, I had a lot on my mind and didn't want to do two post.

If we ask and have faith we will recieve

2010-06-22T14:40:00.004-05:00

Ok so all our lives we are taught that if we pray and ask God for something we will recieve. I have become more faithful in praying for what I want and I have faith that God will give me what I ask for.

I can't let others change that I was a little excited about something the other day and someone stomped on my excitement. I know that there are people who have no idea what it is like to want something pray for it and sit and let God bring it to you. So much has changed for me in the last 5 months with God's help I have changed my life. The fact that others noticed this that I don't talk to that much means God and I are on the right track here.

I learned that what I thought was stricked as a child was no where near stricked. I am very thankful for all that my parents did for us but, I know there are many reasons why I did the things that I did for the last 10 years I see them now. Some would probly say that it isn't why but, only God and I know the reasons.

I am so happy that God has put me where I am today I know that is for a reason also. I am also excited for where God is leading my life I enjoy talking to people at church, doing activies with them, and having a christian to talk to.

So I am so excited to see where God lead me in the future.....

The Right One...

2010-04-07T19:30:00.005-05:00

So I was sitting here thinking and that can be really dangerous but, once upon a time I made a list. So here is what I am thinking for a good man...

Loves God
Smart
Cute
Tall
Sense of humor
Can make me laugh
Funny
Spontaneous
Hard worker
Enjoys fishing
Enjoys the out doors
Family oriented
Wants kids
Has passion
Affectionate
He is a MAN!!! (and acts like one)
Has his own things that he is into
Is there for you when you need him
Honest
Trustworthy
Faithful
Loves me for me
Easy to talk to
MY BEST FRIEND

That person that I can sit and have a conversation about nothing, for hours. This is the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with.

To have those dumb conversation that I have with my other friends and he gets it.. You know he really gets me and I get him..

We have things that we do together yet we also have out separate things..

To know that in 20 years when it is us we will still be able to have a conversation about nothing..

Can sit around and joke on and with each other...

Be goofy at times and silly....

Enjoy life have fun cause you never know what will happen.....

Today

2010-04-04T23:24:00.006-05:00

So maybe it is because I don't have a tv in front of my bed now that I am in the basement but, been listening to the music on my itunes on the computer.

I have decided NeedToBreathe is now my new favorite band need to download more of their music. Anyway it has gotten me thinking also with what I have been going through the last couple of months. On January 15 I put my last cigarette out for good I haven't picked one up since and don't plan on it either. I am very proud of myself this is something I struggled with for many years.

In the months since quiting I have drawn closer to the Lord and my family. I don't feel like this strange,stinky, black sheep any more. It amazing what can happen with PRAYER, will power, and mints.

There have been many changes in me the last few months it is not something I can put fully into words but, I am really happy where I am spiritually, mentally, and physically. That is the best way I can describe it to you.

Like I love this song 'What This World Needs' there is a part where they talk about we really just need to get out of God's way.

'People aren't confused by the Gospel they are confused by us, Jesus is the only way to God but, we are not the only way to Jesus. This world doesn't need my tie, My hoodie, my denomination, or my translation on the Bible. they just need Jesus we can be passionate about what we believe but, we can't strap ourselves to the gospel cause we're slowing it down. Jesus is going to save the world but, maybe the best thing we can do is JUST GET OUT OF THE WAY.

There are soooo many songs that I am loving right now here are a few.....
Something Beautiful - NeedToBreathe
More Time - NeedToBreathe
Love is here- tenth Avenue North
All Along - Remedy Drive
Washed By the Water - NeedtoBreathe
Until the whole world hears - Casting Crowns
Forgiven and Loved - Jimmy Needham
Forgiven- Sanctus Real
On and On - Chasen
What This World Needs - Casting Crowns

If you haven't heard even one of these google it and listen to the words you will like it also trust me they are all good songs.

I love listening to these songs they lift me and Christ up I am praising him and I feel better through out the day by listening to them....

Revival

2010-04-04T23:08:00.005-05:00

Ok so this is late but, I just was sitting here playing games on Facebook and thought I need to update and I made notes one day on my phone I need to post that. So here it is first I will tell you we had revival in March the 21-24 with Sam Davidson. The lord really blessed my heart and I will share the notes i put in my phone one day when I was riding on the bus.

So we had revival this week at church great services loved the preaching that Bro Sam brought to us. I was blessed by so much of what he said during the last three days. I will share with you what god blessed and revealed to me. There are many things that happen in our lives and we ask 'God why did you let this happen to me?' I know he allows us to go through things because we can handle it and we learn. There are many things that have happened in my life that I could have went without having to learn from. I don't think I would be who I am today if I hadn't went through those things.

Some times we want to put a limit on God like ok God it is in your hands till____then when we get to that point we say ok I guess I will have to help you Lord. God doesn't need my help I have to stop limiting him on what he can do. He has a plan for me I just need to get out of his way and let him do his work. I know his plan is way better then whatever I have.

So I am stepping out of the way and letting God have his way in my life everyday. It is amazing to me how you change a few things in your life and you really feel the difference in your life.

Things I am learning now.....

2010-03-08T20:35:00.006-06:00

I find it so funny now how things come around.... ok everyone else probably already had this figured out about me but I didn't.

So I have the bad habit of finding the wrong guys I end up dating these guys that are wrong for me. So recently I started talking to this guy and I wasn't really into do to some things but, I always try to give people a chance. After a few days of thinking and talking to the person I decided that I couldn't date him but we could be friends.

Any way that isn't the point the point is I need to stop seeing people just because they are into me that is not a reason to date someone. I need to be into them also which starts that way then i look more at the person and realize there is no way this could ever work.

How is it that I never understood this before??? I knew I had a act for finding losers but, now I know why I let them hang around.

On another note check out these pics I found thanks to thepioneerwoman.com.

How cool are these this guy draws different things one of them is Phat Chicks. I loved these 3 pics thought it was really cool that he draws phat chicks he does others also. That is all have a great day later yo.....

Lots to say......

2010-02-14T00:31:00.005-06:00

I have lots of thoughts going through my little brain tonight it happens all the time tho. I wander things like where is my prince that I was promised in the fairy tales???

Why do I obsess about said prince knowing that they only exist in fairy tales??? Yeah I know there are a few princes out there but, they belong to someone else. Seriously how can one person obsess over something so much it is always in my mind. No one understands the way it is people say 'oh you are still young you have time' yeah yeah. That is not the point why can't I have the fairy tale I always wanted????

When I was a kid the only thing I ever wanted when I grew up was to get married and have kids. Sounds so easy yet not at all. Even harder when everyone you know has kids and a man I am surrounded by them.

I know having a man and kids doesn't bring happiness I am not saying that at all I am very happy with my life I just want my fairy tale also is that so much to ask???

Then are always the wonderful people who ask you are you married? Do you have any kids??? Or this is the other one that I get are you the one that is married??? Seriously so that is how I am known as the non married daughter nice thanks!!! Like I'm not depressed enough I need to be asked all these lovely questions.

Ok I think I am done complaining that is my rant for the week..

You never know where I will be.....

2010-02-13T18:26:00.005-06:00

So I am back in the Arctic South Dakota things did not work out in Indiana. Even tho lots of people wanted them too. Country man and I did not work out big surprise there right impossible to find a good guy.

So back living with the folks which I forgot how funny they are oh my goosh they crack me up. Working at School Bus which pays saving money to buy a car with my tax check. Working out trying to lose some weight and changing my life in different ways. I had a bad habit which some of you know about and I tried quiting back in March. Well Monday it will be a month that I have quit. I am so proud of myself and plan to keep it this way. I feel great even better after i workout it is amazing how great you feel after.

The other day the folks and i were talking and I told them I am so over finding a man I am not even going there any more. If they want me out of the house they have to find me a husband they laughed at me. I don't think they will really do it tho cause they think everyone is 'weird'. Which in it self is really funny cause they are weird they just don't know they are.

So I guess we will wait and see what happens you never know. So I think that is about all for this post may add something later.

Love ya

I Should have called and told you.....

2009-12-15T17:50:00.003-06:00

I am swooning.... Awwww... ok but, seriously. I have meet me a man and things are going well. I have been afraid to say anything for the many questions there will be. But I really like Country man and things are very different with him then with any other guy. I think that is why I decided to write this out I need to work things out in my head.

So I guess the starter is where did I meet him? Well I went to meet Country Man's friend. I didn't know he was bringing Country Man I am so glad he did tho. Me and the friend did not hit it off but, I did with Country Man. Needless to say said friend was not happy and didn't want us talking and I said if CM agrees then fine. CM did not agree and called me the next day there have been MANY long nights on the phone for the last 2 weeks. We finally got to see each other again on Friday night and went out Saturday for my birthday.

We went to dinner at LOGAN'S of course then went bowing with Steph,Kenny, Kevin, Melissa, and Scott. We all had so much fun one of my best birthday's I had my girls with me and Country Man. It was wonderful!!! SWOON

So now to the part that I need to work out in my head. I think I have it figured out but, still thinking on it. So Country Man and I are taking things so not RUSHING. I know what a switch for me but, really I'm not I am going one day at a time with this. Things are going great Country Man has spoke of things like what do you want for Christmas and we have talked of doing a few things in the next couple of months.

So why does this feel so different then with any guy I have ever been with? That is the part I can't get. He's not like other guys I have dated before either he is sweet and tender and says the nicest things. To which I joke and say ' keep earning those brownie points' which he is. I have never had some one call me Miss America, perfect, gorgeous, and just beautiful. This is not normal for me I love it but, so not used to it. He cares about how I feel about different things he is so gentle, respectful, honest, gentleman, and Country. I shocked him one day he asked me if I knew who Bill Dance was? I said yeah I know who he is My dad watches his fishing show. Not even kidding this is what he says "Me and your dad will get along great we can watch hunting and fishing all day." Great me and mom will shop!!! I know I not looking for a man for my dad but, I enjoy those things I loved it when dad came home with whatever he went hunting for. Those are great memories I have with my dad.

Fuzzy says that I think it feels different because I'm not rushing things that I am going one day at a time and seeing what happens. I am excited and can't wait to see where things go but, I'm not pushing things to get there. So I guess what I am saying is I am happy so happy I can't even explain fully what I am feeling cause I don't know. What I do know is I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings.

I LOVE Songs

2009-11-19T01:39:00.004-06:00

You ever have a song that just I don't know how to say it sticks with you and it won't go away? Sure you have everyone has.

After reading someone else's blog I now have a song stuck in my head. Like said person I love this song it says so much about having the Faith that we some times forget we have. The things God has done in our lives or people that we know.

I love music and think that songs speak a message to us in their own way. There is another song that we sang at Falls Church Called Second Chance by Hillsong I love this song.

You called my name Reached out Your hand

Restored my life And I was redeemed

The moment You entered my life

Amazing grace Christ gave that day My life was changed

When from my shoulders Fell the weight of my sin

So it’s with everything I am I reach out for Your hand

The hope for change The second chance I’ve gained

On You I throw my life Casting all my fears aside How could greater love than this

Ever possibly exist

Consume my thoughts As I rest in You

I’m now in love With a Saviour Bearing the marks of His love

So I’ll wait upon You now With my hands released to You

Where a little faith’s enough To see mountains lift and move

And I’ll wait upon You now Dedicated to Your will

To this love that will remain A love that never fails

It is such a true song His love never fails, No one loves us like God loves us and he can move mountains. When everything feels like you are in the pit and never going to get out he is there with his hand stretched out to us. To pull us out of the pit believe me cause I have been in that pit several times.

No mater what we do he still loves us and is there for us. I know I can always turn to God for help whenever I need it and he will be there I take comfort in that.

I want to share a few songs that I have been listening to I will give you titles you can look them up I have several. Go check them out you might like them.

What Faith Can Do by Kutless
All Along By Remedy Drive
Lord move, or move me By FFH
Every move I make by Hillsong kids
The words i would say by Sidewalk prophets
More Beautiful You by Jonny Diaz
Love is here By Tenth Avenue North
By Your side By Tenth Avenue North
Can't get away by Rush Of Fools
There's only Grace Matthew West

So go check them out they might speak to you also.

Have a great day love Toni :)

Home Is Where The Heart Is.............

2009-11-10T18:17:00.003-06:00

I love being Home

I just have to blog about this because I have been thinking about it the last couple of days and it the only way I will get it out of my head.

So you know how when you go away on vacation or visit someone then when you come home you are so relieved and happy. That is how I have felt for the last few weeks being back in Indiana. It’s so like coming home from a long vacation I know that sounds weird to anyone else. This is home for me; my heart has been here since I left 2 years ago. I was happy in Sioux Falls with my family I am always happy to be with them and I miss them lots. But I love being back in Indiana. Melissa used to tell me ‘you just don’t seem happy there you need to come home where you were happy’. I thought she was just trying to get me back here which she was but, I wasn’t as happy as I am here. Looking back on all I have done the last 2 years I wasn’t happy I see that now I didn’t then.

I am so excited to start this new chapter in my life it’s not a new beginning it is almost picking up where I left off. Working at TG, seeing (and living with) Melissa, all my friends, and seeing JJ. You don’t realize how much you miss things till they aren’t there or they come back. I knew I missed everyone but, I didn’t realize I missed them this much. It is the little things that I missed the most driving down a country road, all the fall trees, creek walking, walks in the woods, 4 wheeling, and bond fires in the woods. Things we used to do and can do again I love that so much. I love when Melissa looks at me and says remember when we used to do this lets go do this. We did a lot of crazy things (sorry dad) but, we where always careful and we had fun. I guess I missed being a country girl the most, getting dirty and having fun while doing it.

So the question is to me would you change the last 2 years? No I got to experience a lot of things that I never probably would have if I hadn’t moved. I meet some great people that I will never forget and will always love. I got to spend time with my family I love being with my niece and nephews I miss them so much.

The other question I get why did you move back? I missed this place everyone who lives here wants to get out. I have been out I wouldn’t trade southern Indiana for any where in the world I love it here. Maybe it is the people I have around me that make it extra special but, I real do love this area.

I know I jump around in what I am saying sometimes it is because there is so much going on in my head. I get off on one thing then go back to something else I guess I am a little scatter brain.

Until next time have a great day and I will post new pictures soon.

Yeah I know what you are thinking......

2009-10-27T17:43:00.010-05:00

I know where have you been? What are you doing? What is going on? So here is the deal remember how in my last post I was going to Indiana for 3 weeks on vacation.

Well.....I am staying in Indiana!!!!! I know what heck. Total shocker to me also I wasn't planning on staying no one was. I went by my old job on Thursday the 22 to see my friend we talked and thought we would play a joke on my old boss. The job I had when I was here opened up bout a month ago I knew it was open Fuzzy had already tried to get me to take it. So Connie and i thought it would be funny to fill out the bid form for the job and put it on his desk so we did. I wasn't expecting him to really do anything about it. Connie text me and said he was looking into bringing me back then the HR lady calls me says they want me to go to Kelly and fill out the app. Because they aren't hiring right now they have to go through Kelly. I tell her I need to think about it and talk it over with some people and I would get back to her(my parents and Melissa). So I talk to Melissa she is cool with it then I make the phone call to dad DOOM DOOM DOOM. He was more worried about the plane ticket then anything I couldn't believe it. He isn't excited because it is so far away from them but, he knows that there aren't jobs there for me.

So I called my old boss back told him i could start on Nov 2 (I am on vacation remember) because I am going to Indy the last week on October. I go down to Kelly Friday morning fill everything out the lady says they want you to start on the 26. I said no I told them I can't I am going to Indy for the week. Then I said ok I will start on the 26th IF I can have Friday off that is the only way they said ok. So I started back at my old job yesterday. Can you believe that WOW I am still in shock.

Last night went really well there are things that will come back over time I know mostly it is learning the numbers of things again. Otherwise all is well I am happy Melissa is happy we got my room all set up well cleaned up more she already had it set up. I will be so happy after this weekend I wont have to live out of a suitcase anymore. After I get a couple pay checks going to send dad money to send me more clothes and shoes. It really sucks when you know you have something some where and you can't get it so annoying I hate that.

So that is what is new and exciting in my life i tell you, you never know what will happen or where I might be.

On a totally different matter I just want to say when you were a kid and your parents made you clean the house and you said they only had you to clean their house ( that is what I said). We used to tease my dad and say your dirty is everyone else's clean. Then you grow up and have a place of your own and you keep it clean you fell proud of that and don't realize that is what they were going for teaching you to do those things. I am very thankful for all the things my parents taught me as a child I didn't know it then but I do now that they were all very important things for me to learn.

Thanks Mom and Dad for being great christian role modles, taking us to church every week, and teaching us things about life that we didn't understand at the time. I know I have made my own mistakes but, you have always been right there praying for me and the Lord's will in my life. Thank you for being the best parents I love you guys.

So here is what is up...

2009-09-23T19:06:00.009-05:00

So I back here in Souix Falls, SD been here since July. Things are going ok I started back at School Bus filling in as a aid. It is going ok hey it is a paycheck if nothing else. I am really excitied that I get to take a 3 week vaction in 16 days. Two of my girls are getting married yeah for them. So Fuzzy and John are getting married on Oct. 12 and Jada and Brian are on Oct. 31. I am so happy for my girls. Really excited that I get to see some people like my other girl Melissa, Stephanie, Kevin and so many others.

Melissa is really excited also she can't wait for me to get there. I miss you girl

This is my Jada she is getting married on Oct 31. I can't believe my Jada is getting married. We have know and been friends since we were 8 years old that is way to long. I can't even believe that it has been that long.

This is Melissa and John they are getting married on October 12. I am so happy for them I have watched this relationship blossom since day one. I saw it before they did I love doing that. I thought John was never going to ask her (neither did Melissa). I am so happy for you guys Love you lots.

Things are changing!!!!

2009-07-17T22:44:00.003-05:00

So a lot of things have happened in my life the last couple of week. I'm not going to tell all but, lets just say I have hit an all time low now. I did it I have no one to blame but, me it is ok I know I will come out of this.

So on Sunday my sister is taking me back to Sioux Falls. Yes I know what a surprise but, this will be good it is better then staying in Texas. I wont be a burden to my sister and her family. So it is back to living with the folks. Not that excited about that but, yet I am. Have to start a job search which I hate. But I have to find a job I have to go to Indiana in October for 2 weddings need to make some money.

Yes 2 of my favorite people are getting married. One is my best friend since the 3rd grade. My Jada is getting married on the 31st yes Halloween. I know surprise right. The other is Melissa(aka Fuzzy) I worked with her in Indiana she is marry a guy we both worked with. He is a great guy I am so happy for them.

I'm not sure if I want to put this out there on here but, I don't think anyone reads this anyway. Let me start at the beginning since I moved to SF EVERYONE in Indiana has wanted me to come back and live there. I have to say that it has crossed my mind a couple of times to move back. So the other day I was presented with a really great offer to move there. I'm not going to go into detail just yet I am still thinking and praying about where God wants me to be. There are lots of job opportunities there for me more then in SF. I really think I want to do this my only concern is telling my folks I don't think they will like the idea of this happening. I think they will say it is crazy that it wont work and I am going to fall on my face. To that I say I did good in Indiana had jobs that were good and I made sure my bills were paid. I never had problems like this there. I also have a great support system there I have lots of 'Family' there they all love me and want to help me out.

So this is what is going on in my life so exciting huh. Please pray for me in this time that I am going through.

Crazy working

2009-04-23T16:39:00.004-05:00

Remind me why I wanted a job so bad??? I ask myself this a couple times last week at work. It gets really boring standing in one spot and can't talk to the person next to you. 1 They can't hear you. 2 They don't understand you. So now I pretty much work on this line on a mezz that is re bar has mats on it but doesn't help. I have shoes that are over a year old and the heels are wore out. So I try and walk back and forth so that my feet wont hurt and try to add some padding. So Work is great really it is a job and I can get lots of overtime I will have 60 hours in this week. That will be a nice check I can save and pay bills. That is about all I don't know much of anything else.

I GOT A JOB!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!

2009-04-09T15:35:00.005-05:00

I got a job!!! So here is the story of me getting the job I saw an add on Craigslist that they were hiring 300 people for a factory job. So I went down there it was a temp place and took an hour to fill out the application but, when I was done I had a job. The man gave me this map and said be here tomorrow 8:30 am. So I went toured the plant then went to orintaion where I filled out the app. They asked right after we got there anyone want to go to work tonight? I said sure so I got out of there at 12:30 headed home took an hour nap then headed to the new job. I have to say I don't think I have ever worked that hard even when I worked at Beach. Here is what I did all night there is this machine that takes the sheet metal and cuts it and puts holes in the metal strips. Which fall into slots then you put two rods into each stack of strips you pull those out line them up on a table 4 sets of them. Then you put the coil in the holes and push it all the way in till it comes out the end. Then lift it off the table put it on the stack with the others and start over again.So there is a lot of lifting and stretching and using muscles I haven't used in a long time. The good thing is it is a work out and I need that. I don't have to go to the gym to workout yeah don't have to pay for a membership. So needless to say I didn't do anything yesterday but, lay around cause I hurt so bad. Today we picked up the house did laundry and cleaned my room up.

I was going to post these pics before but, was waiting for Mindy to post them first. So here are the pictures from the Rodeo.

Have a great day. Love always Toni

Job Hunting

2009-04-02T13:55:00.002-05:00

So I thought I had a job. Which I did have it but, it was not the right job for me. I went on this awesome interview Tuesday night for a nanny job. I clicked with them I think I hope they think I clicked with them too. This is an awesome job it is salary and I would get to travel with the family. I am praying this is where God would have me be. If you all could please keep me in your prayers for the job God wants for me.

I love this skit

2009-03-26T11:41:00.000-05:00

While I'm Waiting

2009-03-24T14:29:00.002-05:00

I have fallen in love with this song if you have seen Fireproof you have heard this song. This song has hit me as a single very hard I need to Serve, Worship, Obey, and Pray while I am waiting on God to provide the right man. Just listen to the words if they will touch you in some way.

What I learned in Church on Sunday.

2009-03-24T13:35:00.006-05:00

So I learned a few things in church on Sunday that i never knew. Not to say that I wasn't taught properly it was just never explained. Now I have to explain it to you so we are studying Genesis in church going through the book. This week we were on God made a covenant with Abram. I'm going to post the Scripture then show you what i learn cause I want to get it right and it make since.

8 But Abram said, "O Sovereign LORD, how can I know that I will gain possession of it?"

9 So the LORD said to him, "Bring me a heifer, a goat and a ram, each three years old, along with a dove and a young pigeon."

10 Abram brought all these to him, cut them in two and arranged the halves opposite each other; the birds, however, he did not cut in half. 11 Then birds of prey came down on the carcasses, but Abram drove them away.

12 As the sun was setting, Abram fell into a deep sleep, and a thick and dreadful darkness came over him. 13 Then the LORD said to him, "Know for certain that your descendants will be strangers in a country not their own, and they will be enslaved and mistreated four hundred years. 14 But I will punish the nation they serve as slaves, and afterward they will come out with great possessions. 15 You, however, will go to your fathers in peace and be buried at a good old age. 16 In the fourth generation your descendants will come back here, for the sin of the Amorites has not yet reached its full measure."

17 When the sun had set and darkness had fallen, a smoking firepot with a blazing torch appeared and passed between the pieces. 18 On that day the LORD made a covenant with Abram and said, "To your descendants I give this land, from the river [d] of Egypt to the great river, the Euphrates- 19 the land of the Kenites, Kenizzites, Kadmonites, 20 Hittites, Perizzites, Rephaites, 21 Amorites, Canaanites, Girgashites and Jebusites."

So you see there in verse 10 where he cut them and put the halves on opposite sides this would make all the blood come together. When there was a covenant made the two would walk through the blood to confirm the covenant. There in 17 when it says a smoking firepot with a blazing torch appeared and passed between the pieces that was God completing the covenant for Abram since he had fallen asleep. The really cool thing with God doing that is back then if one party didn't complete there end of the covenant they were killed. I never knew all these things so it was very interesting to me.

The other thing I learned was how Jewish weddings are done and the Lord's supper. So take the part of the blood from above and apply that to the Lord's supper stay with me.

17On the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread, the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Where do you want us to make preparations for you to eat the Passover?"
18He replied, "Go into the city to a certain man and tell him, 'The Teacher says: My appointed time is near. I am going to celebrate the Passover with my disciples at your house.' " 19So the disciples did as Jesus had directed them and prepared the Passover.

So they were on a mount and Christ sent them to a city where they had to walk through the valley were others were sacrificing for the passover. So they left the mount and walked through the valley. When we take the Lord's supper and it says this is the blood of the new testament which was shed for many. I got that part but, listen to this ok in the Jewish faith when a man wants to be with a girl he goes to her farther they have a glass a wine. The man leaves builds a house for her comes back for her. They walk down the aisle the aisle is the blood flow you have the bride side the groom side think about that and what happened with Abram. So then they have another glass of wine when they are married see the connection? Christ had a glass of wine with the disciples at the last supper that being the engagement wine. During the last supper Christ says he will not drink of that fruit of the vine till he drinks it anew with us in heave at THE MARRIAGE SUPPER in heaven. HELLO never got that before. Then when they were finished they went out into the mount of olives where they had come from so they walked back through the blood from all the sacrificed animals. I think I got all that right I thought it was so cool light bulbs were going off in my head like why did I never put this all together.

I just wanted to share this with all I enjoyed it very much and if you would like to hear the message you can go to this link http://www.kingsland.org/Resources/sermonseries.htm and click on the music note next to Abrahamic Covenant.

I hope you enjoy love always Toni.

It has been awhile.

2009-03-23T23:46:00.003-05:00

Man there has been so much more happen since the last post. I really need to do this more often I just get busy and don't think about it. Plus I made this blog as a place for me just to vent and say what ever I want. Anyway when I last left you i was living in South Dakota. Not so anymore I am now a Texan. Of course Texan's don't think that bout I am calling myself that. I love the south it is the best place to live the people are just so much nicer here than in the north. Now don't get me wrong there are nice people in the North but, everyone is nice here.

So I guess you want to know how this all came about and the whole what you doing now. The middle of january my brother-in-law was laid of. Two weeks later he came across an add for a job he called the number spoke to a guy sent his resume. The next day Roger spoke to the guy again they wanted to see Roger and wanted to know how soon he could get to Houston, Tx. My sister and Roger left that weekend leaving the Children in my hands with the help of others. Let me tell you that was a crazy 4 days children were sick and unhappy. They of course liked Roger, he liked the company they put him up for a month and my sister came home to pack up the house.

Then came the 'You know you could come with. I'll need some help.' Which didn't hurt me any I was more than willing to move leave that cold weather. I don't and wont miss that at all. I decided to come with I packed up my stuff also and came to Texas too. It has been great I'm still looking for a job but, I know God will provide one.

There has been another good come out of it I quit smoking I haven't had one in 7 days. I am so proud of myself I am trying really hard this time and I think this is the longest I have went. So go me!!!!!!!

I think that is about all I will post more in a little while need to go to bed. Love always Toni

Man it has been CRAZY

2009-01-13T21:58:00.003-06:00

I know I haven't updated in awhile a lot has happened since my last update. I was laid off from work on November 19. Then started working at School Bus Inc. as an aid the next day which was a God sent. I am still there and making it work the best I can. I am still looking for a better job but, haven't found anything yet. We had a good thanksgiving with Grandma and Granpa much fun was had by all. It is always hard to see them go I miss them as soon as they leave.

Then my Birthday yeah I am another year older now man where did the time go. I had a good birthday my friend Liz took me to the movies to see Twilight which I am so into. I have read all the books and now Liz is all into the books too.

Christmas was good to had Christmas at Mindy's with the kids. Mom and Dad rented a room at one of the hotels that has a indoor water park. I helped them watch the kids they had a blast it was so cool they love the water and Sam must have went down the slide a million times. They didn't want to leave but, all things come to an end.

New Years not much happened I went out with Liz and Jermey to the Castaway Bar which was so fun it is in a hotel that has a water park inside so their were kids everywhere having ablast it was fun gonna have to get a room there next year and do that again. That pretty much brings us up to date not much is happening. I know pretty boring isn't it catch you later.

6 Days

2008-11-18T03:23:00.004-06:00

We have only 6 days till Grandma and Grandpa come for Thanksgiving. YEAH I love you guys so much and miss you. There is nothing like seeing your grandparents I love hanging out with them. I know when they come we are in for LOTS of cards and food, we Thomas' know how to merge the 2 together well. Yeah i stole the pic from Mindy I don't have a pic of Grandma and Grandpa together. Love you guys and can't wait for you to get here.

So I was thinking....

2008-11-14T02:00:00.004-06:00

I know that can be a bad thing but, when work is slow and there isn't much to do i tend to think about things. There are some things that happened about 2yrs ago that really hurt me and my family. I seem to still think about this and don't know why it is like this ghost that haunts me just when i think I have beat it, it returns.

I wander why it happened and why God wont let me just forget it? You see I thought I had meet the right guy the one i would have babies with and grow old together. Only I had found the one that would hurt me more and deeper then anyone had ever hurt me before.

So why is it so hard to just let this go and forget about it? I want to forget it ever happened it seems the more I try to do that the more he is in my mind. You know that I am afraid to go to a truck stop by myself now because of him. I know that sounds crazy but, if you know me then you understand why that is. I guess this just proves to me that the devil is just a evil if not more then we think cause only he would push me toward a man that acts like a Godly man but, is far from it.

Then I think about this saying I was told one year at Duncan's camp by a very smart christian girl. She said 'Satan sends his best before God sends his very best'. So now I wait for God to send his very best when and if it happens I will be here till God calls us home.

Which leads me to think about all the things that I should stop doing or change to bring that very best. I am working on some of those things it is a long hard road but, I am trying. I was talking to Jason about some of these things that I am going through and he is helping me a lot he has that encouraging voice I hear when I need that little boost in confidence. He is one of very few people that REALLY knows me. The good, the bad, and the ugly in my life I have never had to or wanted to hind things from him. I think that is why we have such a good relationship. Jason made a change in his life about 2 years ago he totally changed everything about him the Jason I knew is no more but, I like the new Jason even more then the old. Because now i can call say this is the struggle I am facing and he says been there this is what you should do. It is so easy to explain how I feel too cause he has been there and did that. Just knowing that he came out of it helps me to know if he can then so can I.

I know I posted a song yesterday but, this is one that hits home with me sometimes I feel like Casting Crowns wrote this song for me. Read the words the look it up on God Tube listen and watch the video. I love this song it is me and says just how I have felt so many times.

She is running

A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

She is trying

But the canyon's ever widening

In the depths of her cold heart

So she sets out on another misadventure just to find

She's another two years older

And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

She is yearning

For shelter and affection

That she never found at home

She is searching

For a hero to ride in

To ride in and save the day

And in walks her prince charming

And he knows just what to say

Momentary lapse of reason

And she gives herself away

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

If judgment looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we've never even met her

If judgment looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we've never even met her

If Judgement looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we've never even met her

Never even met her

(Never Even Met her)

What a good day!!!

2008-11-14T00:55:00.007-06:00

My sister texted me last night and told me 'Madelyn asked Jesus into her heart tonight'. That is so exciting we have one more going to Heaven with us now.

My friend Jason called me and told me Becca's (a friend of ours) dad is in the hospital and to pray for him. They are not sure what is wrong with him but, he is bleeding in the brain they think he had a mild stroke. I talked to Becca today he is doing a little better he is still bleeding in the brain and it is bruised. They think the bruise happened when he fell caused by the stroke. Please pray for him he is better but not out of the woods he doesn't remember somethings and hopefully the bleeding will stop. I know the family would really appreciate your prayers in this manner.

Revelation WHAT A SONG!!!1

2008-11-13T02:41:00.011-06:00

So I had a not very good weekend things were not looking good for me money wise it was bad. God worked things out and now there just mite be a light at the end of the tunnel. In the process of going through this I heard a song by Third Day that really touched me I couldn't get it out of my head all weekend. I only heard it once on Friday but it stayed in my head I couldn't find it anywhere online either. Then today I found it on Godtube I will post the lyrics and try to post what is on Godtube. I love this song it is so true and has help me so much this weekend I hope it speaks to you also.

Third Day Revelation Lyrics:

My life has led me down the road that's so uncertain

Now I am left alone and I am broken

Trying to find my way Trying to find the faith that's gone

This time I know that you are holding all the answers

I'm tired of losing hope and taking chances

On roads that never seem To be the ones that bring me home

Give me a revelation

Show me what to do

'Cause I've been trying to find my way

I haven't got a clue

Tell me should I stay here Or do I need to move

Give me a revelation

I've got nothing without you

My life has led me down this path that's ever winding

Through every twist and turn, I'm always finding

That I am lost again

Tell me when this road will ever end

I don't know where I can turn

Tell me, when will I learn

Won't you show me where I need to go

Let me follow your lead

I know that it's the only way that I can get back home

Give me a revelation,

Show me what to do

Cause I’ve been trying to find my way,

I haven’t got a clue

Tell me should I stay here,

Or do I need to move

Give me a revelation I’ve got nothing without You

I’ve got nothing without You

Oh, give me a revelation…

I’ve got nothing without You

If you click on the following link it will take you to God Tube this is not the best sound quality but you can at least hear the song.

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=a3c5b2a85d6f79deaba1

You don't know how much God will take care of you after you have dug yourself into a hole until he helps you out of the hole. Friday I was ready to call it quites on everything I was at rock bottom I have been low before but, never this low. With a lot of talking and crying with my dad and this song I started to feel better. Then God started opening windows all over things just started falling into place. In the end I wont be where I am now but, I will be better off. I plan to work on a lot of things over the next few months there are a lot of giants that I need to fight. With God's help all is possible so i am not worried he has a plan for me I need to step a side so that the plan can happen. I need to stop doing a lot of the things that I do so that he can work in my life I know this but, it is hard. Please pray that I will have the strength to turn everything over to him and turn from the things I shouldn't do. Thank you all so much I will talk to you later.

TWILIGHT the movie comes out Nov 21 yeah!!!!!!

2008-11-13T02:15:00.010-06:00

OH my let me just say if you have not read Twilight go get you a copy today and read it before the movie comes out next Friday. I am so excited about this I can hardly contain myself. I have never read a book so fast in my life I love this story. I also have a thing for vampire series another good one is Charlaine Harris' southern vampire series if you have HBO they made a show from this series(read the books first show is good book is better). Anyway I am just really excited and wanted all to know go see Twilight.

2008-10-24T20:12:00.007-05:00

Yeah I know it has been awhile but, really I don't think anyone reads this so I am safe. So I moved into a new apartment the first of October. A one bedroom alittle smaller but really I didn't need that big place with just me and this one is cheaper ;). We had the buddy walk for Jonas on Oct. 4 that was a lot of fun good times had by all. My friend Liz even came out to help support us. Last year we didn't go but, I think we will make sure that we do every year from now on. Isn't he just the cutest little boy ever;)

Liz and I they were serving Starbucks coffee not that great that was some really strong coffee.

They had pictures along the walk of different children that was cool.

Here is all of us by Jonas's Picture oh yeah we couldn't forget the dog Charolette.
So that is what has been going on unpacking settling into the new place. I got my hair cut and colored thursday that is different but a good different. you will see I will try and get some pics up soon.

I ran away last weekend to BIKE WEEK at Sturgis!!!!

2008-08-12T17:03:00.008-05:00

So my friend Liz said to me last week I want to take the kids to see their Grandma next weekend and Jeremy is working would you like to go? We will just go not tell anyone that we are going. I said sure cause I have never been to Rapid or anywhere west of Sioux Falls. It was so much fun Friday night we went to Sturgis walked down Main street saw a lot of bikes and other things. Went to The Full Throttle to see Three Six Mafia I had a blast.

Saturday we did the tourist thing cause I had never see the sights of the west. Liz and I went to her mama's house to pick up the kids and mama. Then we headed for Crazy Horse. That was awesome you know that it is not federal money all donations and cost of admission. I think that is cool yet it is taking a long time to carve this thing because of that. the welcome center they have there is really cool there are low scale modals of what it will look like when it is finished. I asked Liz do you think it will be done in our life time? She said NO.
Ok Liz told me this rock was coming up on the road we were on and I said I had to have a pic. I didn't believe her at first then I saw it. I'm not gonna say what I see I will let you decided what you see.
After Crazy Horse we went to Custer, Liz showed me all the places she had lived. Then we were off the Mt Rushmore Yeah I was so excited this is one place I had always wanted to go since I was little. I tell you it is the coolest thing to see standing there under George's nose is wild and yet beautiful at the same time.
Liz's kids in front of Mt Rushmore Sandy, Skyler, and Jordy.
As you walk up to the faces they have these pillars on each side there is a state it says what year the state was added and what number the state is. There is also the state flag hanging above that. I am standing next to the Indiana one cause that is home to me. When we were done at Mt Rushmore we headed up the road to Keystone were we found this big chair we all had get our picture taken in the chair.

This a pic of Skyline drive it is so pretty sorry it is blurry.

Sunday we headed up to Deadwood wow let me tell you it doesn't matter if you like to gamble or not just to see these old buildings is so worth it. A lot of them are the original building from the 1800's which I find really cool. So that is about it for me now I will try and hit you back with more as it comes.

My clock is ticking tick, tick, tick.....

2008-08-02T20:04:00.005-05:00

OK so I bet you are wondering what the heck I mean. Lately I have been feeling my clock ticking the thought of having a baby is something I have been thinking about more and more. Which really sucks when you have no one to share that with(I mean a man). Part of me loves being single the freedom that comes with it. The other part longs for that companionship and having my OWN family. The stuff I've dreamed of since I was a little kid you the husband, kids, a dog or cat. It hurts and sucks to know that I am almost 28 and have none of this that I always thought I would have. It is amazing when you are a kid you dream of so many things you think that is what your life will be like. That isn't how it happens at all I look back and think what did I do wrong did I take the wrong path to get HERE. Is this punishment for something I did wrong? Or am I NEVER going to have those things I dreamed of for so long. Maybe this is just gonna be my life forever single and no kids. I could lie and say that I would be ok with that but, I wouldn't I want to know what it feels like to have that baby move inside you the first time the morning sickness. I know I am crazy but, when you have been around so many people that have had kids and you listen to them talk about these things all that comes to my mind is 'I can't wait to experience that'. I can't even imagine what it feels like to have all those hormones and feelings going on with your body but, I sure hope I get to someday. When I try to explain this to others they don't and can't understand cause they either had kids young or never had this alone time that I have had. If you haven't experienced this you can't understand it I know that doesn't make sense to some but, if you haven't been down that road you can't give someone else directions. If that makes sense at all it does to me cause I haven't ever been down that family road so I can't give directions for that road. I keep feeling like I am having a bad dream and I will wake up and things will be the way I want them to be. You know husband, 2.5 kids, house, and pets but, it isn't a dream this is my life. Weather I like it or not I need to just face that this is what God has given me and move forward and if he says that I'm not to have any of those things then I will have to deal with it like it or not.

Just some thoughts!!

2008-05-16T00:02:00.004-05:00

So there hasn't been to much going on in my life but I will update you on things. Job has been good working more our other night QA took a supervisor position so I am now the only night QA. Which means I now work Sunday thur Thursday 8 to 10 hr shifts. Man it is hard to go back to working everyday I am so ready when Friday gets here for a day off.

Mothers Day was nice Mindy, the kids, mom, and I all went out for lunch together that was fun. It was a very rainy day but we still had fun went and ran around town and of course the MALL. I wasn't sure what to get mom for mother's day and it was her birthday so I told her we would just go shopping and she could pick something out. In true Thomas family we usually end up finding the good deal and we did mom got the outfit she wanted and it didn't cost me an arm and a leg. Thanks mom.

So now I am preparing for my road trip to INDIANA YEAH I am so excited it has been almost a year since I saw all my friends (who are family I have 3 kids there, Adam, Tirzah, and Noah) . There has been a new baby born that I haven't got to spoil yet and I am so excited about that little Noah is ready to meet his aunt Toni.

My best friend is getting married so excited for her she is marrying a great guy I couldn't have picked a better guy for her. She has had so many losers and it makes me happy that she has finally found her Prince so to speak. We all no men aren't prefect but, this man is just the best I knew it when I went over there and he had a room just for Tirzah. What guy does that I don't know any his is so good with Tirzah too and he puts up with Melissa's crap. Believe me if he can handle her he is a good man. Oh now she isn't that bad she is like me only a little wilder. She is my sister and always will be God didn't make us sisters cause I think he knew our parents could never handle that. So I have 13 sleeps til I will be in INDIANA. We are so excited I am heading up the Bachelorette party from 900 miles away that is fun let me tell you. I have some help which is good I have so much planned it is going to be a blast. Melissa's mom and I are also throwing her a Bridal shower the same day so that will be fun and very conservative.

OK enough about that, I was feeling a little conflict going on inside of me a couple weeks ago so I called up my good friend Jason who has been through some trails and i knew could help. He suggested I read this book about David and Goliath it is called Defeating the Giants. I fell in love with this book as I was reading the book I was also going back to the Bible to really understand what was going on. There is so much more to the story that I never knew you know when they tell us Bible stories they say all the good parts but, not about all the trails that they went through. Which helps you to understand that you aren't the only one going through a valley or trying to climb that mountain. I also came across this really good band (thanks to Jason) called Skillet they are a christian band that is also played on the pop radio. I always love it when a christian band crosses both radios because that is one way we can get the message of Christ out to those who don't know him. So think about that the next time you hear "I can only imagine on the radio and you aren't on the christian radio station.

I know that I have done a lot of jumping around in thought but this is all stuff that goes on with me you think I like carrying all this stuff in my head. So I guess I will leave it at that for now I will try to update you on all the crazyness in my head again real soon.

Had a Blast Saturday night!!

2008-03-03T05:38:00.008-06:00

Chelle, Liz, and I decided to go out to the bar Saturday night and have a few drinks. I will walk you threw the night Chelle took pictures and I made a lot of funny pictures. In the first one I was posing pretty.

Don't ask what was happening here it appears as though Liz is grabbing me but, she is not.

I was telling her no and she was saying yes in the end she won!

Liz was testing to see if I could still feel my nose. I could all night not a problem.

I kept loosen my straw in my glass ok I was a little out of it..

They were being mean to me:( Ok not so mean as embarrassing me about the cute bartender.

So that pretty much sums up the night. I hope all are happy I updated my blog.

The cutest babies

2008-02-04T04:22:00.000-06:00

Racheal came to visit Mindy this weekend (her best friend). She has a 4 month old Mable she is so cute and the same size as Jonas who is 8months. Mable weights 15lbs and Jonas weights 14lbs he looks so little next to her. They has lots of fun playing with each other pulling hair, ears, and a little bit of finger sucking. It was just so cute the 2 most adorable babies in the world playing together.

Sam's Birthday

2008-02-04T04:18:00.000-06:00

So Sam had a good Birthday party got a lot of good gifts and had lots of fun too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM 6 YEARS OLD!!!!!!

2008-01-31T22:58:00.000-06:00

I know you are wondering what is with all the pictures of Sam well It is Sam's Birthday today (at least for the next hour). I am a little slow I know any way I thought I would pick out a few good pictures of him and post them for his birthday. Mindy is having a party on saturday I will have more pictures then. Enjoy y'all.

Some newer pictures

2008-01-23T07:38:00.000-06:00

I know some of you would love to see new pictures of Jonas and the kids so here you go.

Titus and Kegean at christmas my great cousin

Jonas at Christmas he is getting so big I can't believe how fast he has grown

You Have to love his smile he is just so cute. How could you not love this little boy?

My new friends

2008-01-23T07:27:00.000-06:00

So I have meet these two crazy girls we have so much fun together. We get a little crazy sometimes I might show you some of those pictures sometime.

Here is Liz, Me, and Chelle on New Years Eve

Chelle and her dollar bird on New Years she silly

Liz and her pretty hat she has a nice hat.

Liz and Me New Years

Me and Chelle

We all had so much fun that night.

2008-01-23T07:11:00.000-06:00

Here is a wonderful picture of the first snow we had which was after thanksgiving. Some of this snow is still here(yeah) we also have gotten more the last couple days.

Falls Park a couple weeks ago sorry it is a little blury. It really is beautiful there at night they put lights on the falls and they change colors it is beautiful.

This one is much better see how pretty it is I love the falls.

The wonderful view from on top of the tower they have there it is so pretty.

Ok I hope you all enjoy the pictures of the falls I will take some that aren't blury.

Here we go!!!!

2008-01-22T01:06:00.001-06:00

Gonna give this a shot not sure what will be on here but, it will be interesting.