I love this skit

While I'm Waiting

I have fallen in love with this song if you have seen Fireproof you have heard this song. This song has hit me as a single very hard I need to Serve, Worship, Obey, and Pray while I am waiting on God to provide the right man. Just listen to the words if they will touch you in some way.

What I learned in Church on Sunday.

So I learned a few things in church on Sunday that i never knew. Not to say that I wasn't taught properly it was just never explained. Now I have to explain it to you so we are studying Genesis in church going through the book. This week we were on God made a covenant with Abram. I'm going to post the Scripture then show you what i learn cause I want to get it right and it make since.

8 But Abram said, "O Sovereign LORD, how can I know that I will gain possession of it?"

9 So the LORD said to him, "Bring me a heifer, a goat and a ram, each three years old, along with a dove and a young pigeon."

10 Abram brought all these to him, cut them in two and arranged the halves opposite each other; the birds, however, he did not cut in half. 11 Then birds of prey came down on the carcasses, but Abram drove them away.

12 As the sun was setting, Abram fell into a deep sleep, and a thick and dreadful darkness came over him. 13 Then the LORD said to him, "Know for certain that your descendants will be strangers in a country not their own, and they will be enslaved and mistreated four hundred years. 14 But I will punish the nation they serve as slaves, and afterward they will come out with great possessions. 15 You, however, will go to your fathers in peace and be buried at a good old age. 16 In the fourth generation your descendants will come back here, for the sin of the Amorites has not yet reached its full measure."

17 When the sun had set and darkness had fallen, a smoking firepot with a blazing torch appeared and passed between the pieces. 18 On that day the LORD made a covenant with Abram and said, "To your descendants I give this land, from the river [d] of Egypt to the great river, the Euphrates- 19 the land of the Kenites, Kenizzites, Kadmonites, 20 Hittites, Perizzites, Rephaites, 21 Amorites, Canaanites, Girgashites and Jebusites."

So you see there in verse 10 where he cut them and put the halves on opposite sides this would make all the blood come together. When there was a covenant made the two would walk through the blood to confirm the covenant. There in 17 when it says a smoking firepot with a blazing torch appeared and passed between the pieces that was God completing the covenant for Abram since he had fallen asleep. The really cool thing with God doing that is back then if one party didn't complete there end of the covenant they were killed. I never knew all these things so it was very interesting to me.

The other thing I learned was how Jewish weddings are done and the Lord's supper. So take the part of the blood from above and apply that to the Lord's supper stay with me.

17On the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread, the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Where do you want us to make preparations for you to eat the Passover?"
18He replied, "Go into the city to a certain man and tell him, 'The Teacher says: My appointed time is near. I am going to celebrate the Passover with my disciples at your house.' " 19So the disciples did as Jesus had directed them and prepared the Passover.

So they were on a mount and Christ sent them to a city where they had to walk through the valley were others were sacrificing for the passover. So they left the mount and walked through the valley. When we take the Lord's supper and it says this is the blood of the new testament which was shed for many. I got that part but, listen to this ok in the Jewish faith when a man wants to be with a girl he goes to her farther they have a glass a wine. The man leaves builds a house for her comes back for her. They walk down the aisle the aisle is the blood flow you have the bride side the groom side think about that and what happened with Abram. So then they have another glass of wine when they are married see the connection? Christ had a glass of wine with the disciples at the last supper that being the engagement wine. During the last supper Christ says he will not drink of that fruit of the vine till he drinks it anew with us in heave at THE MARRIAGE SUPPER in heaven. HELLO never got that before. Then when they were finished they went out into the mount of olives where they had come from so they walked back through the blood from all the sacrificed animals. I think I got all that right I thought it was so cool light bulbs were going off in my head like why did I never put this all together.

I just wanted to share this with all I enjoyed it very much and if you would like to hear the message you can go to this link http://www.kingsland.org/Resources/sermonseries.htm and click on the music note next to Abrahamic Covenant.

I hope you enjoy love always Toni.

It has been awhile.

Man there has been so much more happen since the last post. I really need to do this more often I just get busy and don't think about it. Plus I made this blog as a place for me just to vent and say what ever I want. Anyway when I last left you i was living in South Dakota. Not so anymore I am now a Texan. Of course Texan's don't think that bout I am calling myself that. I love the south it is the best place to live the people are just so much nicer here than in the north. Now don't get me wrong there are nice people in the North but, everyone is nice here.

So I guess you want to know how this all came about and the whole what you doing now. The middle of january my brother-in-law was laid of. Two weeks later he came across an add for a job he called the number spoke to a guy sent his resume. The next day Roger spoke to the guy again they wanted to see Roger and wanted to know how soon he could get to Houston, Tx. My sister and Roger left that weekend leaving the Children in my hands with the help of others. Let me tell you that was a crazy 4 days children were sick and unhappy. They of course liked Roger, he liked the company they put him up for a month and my sister came home to pack up the house.

Then came the 'You know you could come with. I'll need some help.' Which didn't hurt me any I was more than willing to move leave that cold weather. I don't and wont miss that at all. I decided to come with I packed up my stuff also and came to Texas too. It has been great I'm still looking for a job but, I know God will provide one.

There has been another good come out of it I quit smoking I haven't had one in 7 days. I am so proud of myself I am trying really hard this time and I think this is the longest I have went. So go me!!!!!!!

I think that is about all I will post more in a little while need to go to bed. Love always Toni

Man it has been CRAZY

I know I haven't updated in awhile a lot has happened since my last update. I was laid off from work on November 19. Then started working at School Bus Inc. as an aid the next day which was a God sent. I am still there and making it work the best I can. I am still looking for a better job but, haven't found anything yet. We had a good thanksgiving with Grandma and Granpa much fun was had by all. It is always hard to see them go I miss them as soon as they leave.

Then my Birthday yeah I am another year older now man where did the time go. I had a good birthday my friend Liz took me to the movies to see Twilight which I am so into. I have read all the books and now Liz is all into the books too.

Christmas was good to had Christmas at Mindy's with the kids. Mom and Dad rented a room at one of the hotels that has a indoor water park. I helped them watch the kids they had a blast it was so cool they love the water and Sam must have went down the slide a million times. They didn't want to leave but, all things come to an end.

New Years not much happened I went out with Liz and Jermey to the Castaway Bar which was so fun it is in a hotel that has a water park inside so their were kids everywhere having ablast it was fun gonna have to get a room there next year and do that again. That pretty much brings us up to date not much is happening. I know pretty boring isn't it catch you later.

6 Days

We have only 6 days till Grandma and Grandpa come for Thanksgiving. YEAH I love you guys so much and miss you. There is nothing like seeing your grandparents I love hanging out with them. I know when they come we are in for LOTS of cards and food, we Thomas' know how to merge the 2 together well. Yeah i stole the pic from Mindy I don't have a pic of Grandma and Grandpa together. Love you guys and can't wait for you to get here.

So I was thinking....

I know that can be a bad thing but, when work is slow and there isn't much to do i tend to think about things. There are some things that happened about 2yrs ago that really hurt me and my family. I seem to still think about this and don't know why it is like this ghost that haunts me just when i think I have beat it, it returns.

I wander why it happened and why God wont let me just forget it? You see I thought I had meet the right guy the one i would have babies with and grow old together. Only I had found the one that would hurt me more and deeper then anyone had ever hurt me before.

So why is it so hard to just let this go and forget about it? I want to forget it ever happened it seems the more I try to do that the more he is in my mind. You know that I am afraid to go to a truck stop by myself now because of him. I know that sounds crazy but, if you know me then you understand why that is. I guess this just proves to me that the devil is just a evil if not more then we think cause only he would push me toward a man that acts like a Godly man but, is far from it.

Then I think about this saying I was told one year at Duncan's camp by a very smart christian girl. She said 'Satan sends his best before God sends his very best'. So now I wait for God to send his very best when and if it happens I will be here till God calls us home.

Which leads me to think about all the things that I should stop doing or change to bring that very best. I am working on some of those things it is a long hard road but, I am trying. I was talking to Jason about some of these things that I am going through and he is helping me a lot he has that encouraging voice I hear when I need that little boost in confidence. He is one of very few people that REALLY knows me. The good, the bad, and the ugly in my life I have never had to or wanted to hind things from him. I think that is why we have such a good relationship. Jason made a change in his life about 2 years ago he totally changed everything about him the Jason I knew is no more but, I like the new Jason even more then the old. Because now i can call say this is the struggle I am facing and he says been there this is what you should do. It is so easy to explain how I feel too cause he has been there and did that. Just knowing that he came out of it helps me to know if he can then so can I.

I know I posted a song yesterday but, this is one that hits home with me sometimes I feel like Casting Crowns wrote this song for me. Read the words the look it up on God Tube listen and watch the video. I love this song it is me and says just how I have felt so many times.

She is running

A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

She is trying

But the canyon's ever widening

In the depths of her cold heart

So she sets out on another misadventure just to find

She's another two years older

And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

She is yearning

For shelter and affection

That she never found at home

She is searching

For a hero to ride in

To ride in and save the day

And in walks her prince charming

And he knows just what to say

Momentary lapse of reason

And she gives herself away

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her?

Can anybody see?

If judgment looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we've never even met her

If judgment looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we've never even met her

If Judgement looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we've never even met her

Never even met her

(Never Even Met her)